What If they stayed

On a lonely night I was extra sad. I thought to myself, “why had so many people left my life? How could they leave with no warning and never come back to see how I was doing? I thought for a split second something must be wrong with me! I’m cursed, I’m broken. What the hell do I do to make them all seem to leave? Then a thought came to me as small as a mustard seed…..what if they stayed? My eyes got big and my heart started to flutter at the thought. Then my mind went into a dream like state where they all stayed. 

I wondered would my heart still long for a mate! Would I still be jaded and think there wasn’t a kind soul? Would I forget the evil that had been done to me? Would my heart be filled. What would I be if they stayed? 

In my dream I had everyone I could ever want here. A mother , father and even the mates that deceived me. Friends that were untrue were here with me too. In this dream no one left they all stayed. No pain, no disappointment no longing in my heart. No crying for what would never be, what never was and what was over. They all stayed. They stayed they cheered me on I could not be defeated because all the ones I ever wanted in my life were here! This will not be a tale with a moral of i’m better off alone. The sad fact was I could only think to be content in a world where they stayed. 


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