Today I decided that I would continue what I set to do many years before. I had once made grand plans to do everything! I planned to conquer the world but instead the world managed to conquer me back. I got set back but only by myself. I cannot blame the world because it was only doing its job. I did it! I failed me.
Now today I have decided to amend those dream and conquer the world and achieve my goals. Some of my prior dreams have died but all of my core goals are still alive and on fire. My body and mind are older and I am more discouraged now because I now think of the time it will take and the time I already wasted. This time I will have more responsibilities to bear while I persue my dreams. The heartbreak and failures of my past threaten me and continuously remind me that I have tried this before and it never works out for me in the end. However today I believe. I saw the ending and I saw success! I saw the plan to make me successful. How? My first goal is to plan and not just stumble through like I have in the past. Next is being still. Why? Well with my previous dreams I relied on others wether for company or for general happiness and when this failed I also failed. This ending only involves me and my Lord and savior of course, so this time I cannot lose. Today is the first day I’m living life for me only.